I made it through the day yesterday. Every year I dread October 3rd, hoping that it would just miraculously skip over to Oct 4th and I would be able to avoid the flood of memories and awful feelings from that day 7 years ago. I decided it was finally time to start writing down my memories and thoughts that have been pushed into a safe place in my heart.
October 27th, 2003, Breanna Kaci Lindquist was born at 29 weeks. She was a miracle right from the start, no doubt about it, Heavenly Father had his hand in every second of her tiny life. She was born at Summerlin Hospital which at the time did not have a level 3 NICU. The hospital was in the process of opening one and the level 3 NICU doctors were there when she was born. This was a blessing because they were able to stabilize her and get her ready for transport to Sunrise Hospital. I didn't even get to see her when Dr. Swainston performed a cesarean and quickly handed an eerily silent tiny infant to the doctors standing by. Rex sat by me, holding my hand and trying to reassure me that everything was going to be alright. Those were my first moments with my daughter.
Tanya - This is wonderful - you've always been such a good writer and I will surely enjoy reading these especially so close to my heart. I want you to know even though I may not always contact you or reach out to you - I always think of her every year on Oct. 3rd and 27th-both dates are written into my calendar every year (you know me and my calendar;-) So, yes sometimes I don't reach out but I always take a minute to reflect about her. Love you :-)
ReplyDeleteYou're making me teary eyed just reading this. She's such a pretty baby, inside and out, just like her mother. I always look for your butterfly necklace whenever you post new family pictures.
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